We all have different struggles. We all face different demons. Sin looks different in each of our lives, but the commonality we all have is His unending grace that covers our messes. Today on Good Friday, I recognize my personal battles, the sins I struggle with more than others. Confession: God created me to be a very passionate and strong person. Yes, these are wonderful and God-honoring qualities, but they can also get me into trouble. And they have. More than a few times.
Taming my tongue is something I'm always trying to work on, with His help + grace. I've come a long way I think, with Him by my side. It's hard, though, definitely hard. We live in a world today that constantly tests me in this area. A world where we face people everyday opposing Him, twisting His Word, and just to put it personally - talking crap about my Father. This is where I get tripped up. I don't want to be that Christian who damns people to hell for their sins or gives others the impression that God accepts some people more than others (trust me, I've never said either of these things). However, I'm sure I've come off a lot more angry or defensive or frustrated than I should have in the past.
I want to make one thing really clear to y'all, not for the sake of my defense, but for His Glory: I don't get defensive of God or my faith when people disagree with me because I just don't like that they disagree with me. I'm not perfect, but I know He's working in me more than that. I get defensive because He is who my life is for. He is who saved my life. He is who has redeemed me from unimaginable crap that, if He had it His way, I would have never faced. Don't get me wrong, I choose Him because I trust His Word and Truth, but I also choose Him because I've seen Him personally move in my life. Nobody can take that away or deny it, well, unless they think I'm crazy. And maybe they do, but that's ok with me.
But bear with me for a second and imagine a loved one you cherish more than anything. Imagine that person has helped save you from an addiction you thought you'd never overcome, or from abuse, or has provided for you financially in unfathomable ways. Whatever it is, they've blessed you beyond comprehension. Now imagine someone telling you that person isn't worth defending, honoring, living for. It's hard. And I'm definitely not perfect at it.
That being said, this weekend is Easter. This weekend He reminds us that we don't have to be perfect at it. He's covered it all. We just have to love - Him + others. And seek His grace. Now that's something I'm definitely better at :)
Happy Easter Everyone - He is Risen.
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